#i just love john here so much #and okay i’m going to take a second to get really irritated about something i read yesterday #how fucking dare you write john off as boring and nothing more than a ‘viewer insert’ #and to say that fandom makes a big deal out of how badass he is? #and makes it seem more like it is? #and all john’s good for is getting things wrong and being the everyman? #okay #yeah okay #let’s recap #1. he shot someone without hesitation to save sherlock’s life #2. he crawled across the floor taped to a chair after being shaken up by being threatened with a gun to save sarah and sherlock #3. he offered to die so sherlock could live #4. he was more than willing to die with sherlock if it meant moriarty went down too #5. oh and let’s go back to when he threatened to kill the golem if he didn’t let sherlock go #6. you could tell he WOULD have come after irene if she hadn’t told sherlock she was alive #7. he pulled rank with no hesitation at baskerville #8. even drugged he shot that dog in the moor #9. he’s never faltered when asked to lie for or with sherlock he’s always gone along with everything #10. he watched his best friend die and he’ll pull it together and continue living
#this man absolutely 1000% has the soul of a soldier #there could have been any number of ways he could have reacted here #he could have lashed out at mike for phrasing it like that #he could have gotten upset #he could have lost himself in memories of what it felt like to bleed out onto sand #but no #he slices it right to the core of what it was and what happened #he got shot #end of story #he doesn’t try to deny it or dance around it or make it into a big poor pitiful me moment #because john watson is strong #stronger than even he thinks he can be #he can — and will — overcome anything #he survived being shot and with that he survived losing being able to do the only two things he thought he could #be a soldier and be a surgeon #and even if his world is dulled and faded he’ll survive losing sherlock holmes #even if he misses him every fucking day #and nothing is the same #he won’t let sherlock’s ghost drag him down or push him into a life half-lived #he’ll go back to work he’ll date and he’ll live #because even if it hurts to draw air into his lungs john watson will breathe
Just once can you two behave like grown-ups?
We solve crimes, I blog about it and he forgets his pants. I wouldn’t hold out too much hope.
“The story of Sherlock Holmes, on the surface, is about deduction, but in reality, it’s about the best of two people who save each other. They become this perfect unit. They become the best friendship ever, and they become heroes.” -Steven Moffat
#just the way john’s looking at him right here #that concern #sherlock would never admit to or acknowledge or even admit that he could be on the edge of falling apart #or cracking under pressure #but john knows him and he’s better at spotting those fraying edges where things are unraveling #it’s why he’ll never understand why sherlock didn’t take him with him #he would have given up everything just as sherlock did #and he would have been there to keep those fraying edges from coming completely undone and leaving sherlock dying or dead #he knows he’s never held him back and he knows he’s good for sherlock even when it comes to his work #conductor of light and all of that #so it’s got to be fucking infuriating when you’re so protective of someone it shows on your face #every fucking time you look at them #and he robs you of the chance to protect him