#i just love john here so much #and okay i’m going to take a second to get really irritated about something i read yesterday #how fucking dare you write john off as boring and nothing more than a ‘viewer insert’ #and to say that fandom makes a big deal out of how badass he is? #and makes it seem more like it is? #and all john’s good for is getting things wrong and being the everyman? #okay #yeah okay #let’s recap #1. he shot someone without hesitation to save sherlock’s life #2. he crawled across the floor taped to a chair after being shaken up by being threatened with a gun to save sarah and sherlock #3. he offered to die so sherlock could live #4. he was more than willing to die with sherlock if it meant moriarty went down too #5. oh and let’s go back to when he threatened to kill the golem if he didn’t let sherlock go #6. you could tell he WOULD have come after irene if she hadn’t told sherlock she was alive #7. he pulled rank with no hesitation at baskerville #8. even drugged he shot that dog in the moor #9. he’s never faltered when asked to lie for or with sherlock he’s always gone along with everything #10. he watched his best friend die and he’ll pull it together and continue living
#this man absolutely 1000% has the soul of a soldier #there could have been any number of ways he could have reacted here #he could have lashed out at mike for phrasing it like that #he could have gotten upset #he could have lost himself in memories of what it felt like to bleed out onto sand #but no #he slices it right to the core of what it was and what happened #he got shot #end of story #he doesn’t try to deny it or dance around it or make it into a big poor pitiful me moment #because john watson is strong #stronger than even he thinks he can be #he can — and will — overcome anything #he survived being shot and with that he survived losing being able to do the only two things he thought he could #be a soldier and be a surgeon #and even if his world is dulled and faded he’ll survive losing sherlock holmes #even if he misses him every fucking day #and nothing is the same #he won’t let sherlock’s ghost drag him down or push him into a life half-lived #he’ll go back to work he’ll date and he’ll live #because even if it hurts to draw air into his lungs john watson will breathe
Just once can you two behave like grown-ups?
We solve crimes, I blog about it and he forgets his pants. I wouldn’t hold out too much hope.
#just the way john’s looking at him right here #that concern #sherlock would never admit to or acknowledge or even admit that he could be on the edge of falling apart #or cracking under pressure #but john knows him and he’s better at spotting those fraying edges where things are unraveling #it’s why he’ll never understand why sherlock didn’t take him with him #he would have given up everything just as sherlock did #and he would have been there to keep those fraying edges from coming completely undone and leaving sherlock dying or dead #he knows he’s never held him back and he knows he’s good for sherlock even when it comes to his work #conductor of light and all of that #so it’s got to be fucking infuriating when you’re so protective of someone it shows on your face #every fucking time you look at them #and he robs you of the chance to protect him